To Who I Am Becoming...

So this is something I have wanted to talk about for a long time. I fist became bothered by this word when I was, what else, watching TV. I was watching Americas Next Top Model when I heard a girl say that she deserved to stay because of all of the things that she had been through in her life. At the time I thought the girl was wrong because she was just plain bad. A few years later I hear ed something that got me thinking and even more fired up about this word. Moira Kelly on One Tree Hill was at a school meeting defending Coach Durram, and I am butchering this but here it goes, "Dan Scott" was saying that the Basketball team deserved to win and "Karen Row" said that the boys did not "Deserve" anything, they had to earn it. This struck me hard. Ever since I heard her say this I have gotten mad every time I hear someone say that they deserve something. No one deserves anything, you earn what you get. Sorry if this does not make any sense but it has been bu

Well this is a new week and with it comes new challenges . I have had so many things happen that I almost want to crawl under a rock and never come out. I of course cannot do this so I have been looking for something to keep me going through all of the down times. It was not surprising to me that my answer came to me wile I was watching One Tree Hill. This show has saved me from many things and this time was no different. Here is what saved me: Make a wish and place it in your heart, anything you want, everything you want. Do you have it? Good. Now believe it can come true. You never know where the next miracle is going to come from, the next smile, the next wish come true. But if you believe that its right around the corner and you open your heart and mind to the possibility of it, to the certainty of it, you might just get the thing you're wishing for. The world is full of magic; you just have to believe in it. So make your wish. Do you have it? Good. Now believe in it wit

So this was a big week. For the first time in a long time I have felt the overwhelming need to cry. As always I am unaware of the way that people can see what is going on with me even when I think that I doing a good job of hiding it from everyone. I am an RA (Resident Advisor) at Dixie. This week I was given the task to work with another RA to make flyer's for a sports activity that was coming up. Usually I am the one who makes sure that everything that needs to go on the fl yer is on and is correct. The other RA usually does all the "Flash". Well this week I had over 28 hours of work to do. Because of all of the homework that I had to do I did not check the fl yer that had been done and let the other RA do what ever he wanted and trusted that the information would be correct. A few days later it was the day before all of my assignments were due and I was freaking out. I also had to go to my RA meeting. At these meeting my RM (Resident Manager) has personal meetings with