She stood in the middle of the room. Her eyes closed so tight that they started to hurt. She knew that the light was on, that there was nothing in the darkness behind her eyes waiting to jump at her, and that good people existed all around her. She opened her eyes hopping to have the light dispel the darkness but somehow it stayed with her like an evil babysitter, watching, waiting, and needing to nothing more than to just be there to smile and remind that it was there. "Isn't this party so much fun!?" For the third time her friend Andy had said this. She smiled with mild enthusiasum and went to get some water. She wondered why she could not get into the fun of the party? She liked these people. She was healthy, for the most part. She had cool toys to entertain her. She was studying interesting things in University. She was important to so many people around her. They would come up to her and see her smile and listen to her stories and laugh and never knew about her const