To Who I Am Becoming...

So this is something I have wanted to talk about for a long time. I fist became bothered by this word when I was, what else, watching TV. I was watching Americas Next Top Model when I heard a girl say that she deserved to stay because of all of the things that she had been through in her life. At the time I thought the girl was wrong because she was just plain bad. A few years later I hear ed something that got me thinking and even more fired up about this word. Moira Kelly on One Tree Hill was at a school meeting defending Coach Durram, and I am butchering this but here it goes, "Dan Scott" was saying that the Basketball team deserved to win and "Karen Row" said that the boys did not "Deserve" anything, they had to earn it. This struck me hard. Ever since I heard her say this I have gotten mad every time I hear someone say that they deserve something. No one deserves anything, you earn what you get. Sorry if this does not make any sense but it has been bu...

Well this is a new week and with it comes new challenges . I have had so many things happen that I almost want to crawl under a rock and never come out. I of course cannot do this so I have been looking for something to keep me going through all of the down times. It was not surprising to me that my answer came to me wile I was watching One Tree Hill. This show has saved me from many things and this time was no different. Here is what saved me: Make a wish and place it in your heart, anything you want, everything you want. Do you have it? Good. Now believe it can come true. You never know where the next miracle is going to come from, the next smile, the next wish come true. But if you believe that its right around the corner and you open your heart and mind to the possibility of it, to the certainty of it, you might just get the thing you're wishing for. The world is full of magic; you just have to believe in it. So make your wish. Do you have it? Good. Now believe in it wit...

So this was a big week. For the first time in a long time I have felt the overwhelming need to cry. As always I am unaware of the way that people can see what is going on with me even when I think that I doing a good job of hiding it from everyone. I am an RA (Resident Advisor) at Dixie. This week I was given the task to work with another RA to make flyer's for a sports activity that was coming up. Usually I am the one who makes sure that everything that needs to go on the fl yer is on and is correct. The other RA usually does all the "Flash". Well this week I had over 28 hours of work to do. Because of all of the homework that I had to do I did not check the fl yer that had been done and let the other RA do what ever he wanted and trusted that the information would be correct. A few days later it was the day before all of my assignments were due and I was freaking out. I also had to go to my RA meeting. At these meeting my RM (Resident Manager) has personal meetings with...

OK so I know that I am a little Obsessed with One Tree Hill. This may seem weired but I think it is the same as loving a good book. Once you get drawn in these people become part of your life just like how Sister Carrie became part of who I am as soon as I read it. I don't think those who create these shows know the responsibility they have to the viewers and to the show they created. This was one thing that made me sad with Gilmore Girls because at the end it was like they had forgotten who "Rori" was and had her be like everyone else. SHE WAS NOT LIKE EVERYONE ELSE!! This is what made us love her so much. One Tree Hill is part of who I am now because everything I yearn for is shown. The things I want in my life are not always possible but when I watch "Haley" fulfilling my dreams them it is almost like I am doing them myself. The story of "Haley" is one that is dear to me because I see her as a person like me. Having yourself in such a public f...

So today I got my intinerary for my trip to England. I am so excited about this. I will be gone for about two weeks. It will be stressful but I am glad to be presenting.

Well now you have another way to know too much about me. I don't know how much I will write but one thing is for sure, you will always know too much about it. Let's have fun and be Dazed together!!!