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A look back one year

So today is my twenty-fifth birthday. So far in my short life I have seen horrors, I have felt love, I have been truly alone, I have been comforted, I have given, I have taken, I have been proposed to but have not felt true love, and I have carried hope and faith with me everyday.

I sit in an apartment in Kowloon overlooking Hong Kong Island with some of my dearest friends. I have always tried to work hard and become the person I would like to be but have just never been able to find the space to do it. So many times I have prayed that I could have something happen to me that I could just remove myself from my life and become a better person. God has given that time to me. Many of the things that I have always wanted to do in my life I have been able to do here.

The past year has been hard. This time last year I had just graduated, moved home, and was looking for a job. I did not find one. I did get an offer for North Slope Alaska but decided that it was hard enough for me to meet people, why make it harder. I took a job at the daycare that I have worked at off and on for the last six years. I had a best friend. I will always be grateful for that time because I was able to learn so many things from the relationships that I had with people there. The friendship didn’t last but I was able to learn valuable things from those experiences. Some dear friends offered to take me to Hong Kong with them and I gladly said yes!!!

The time in Hong Kong has showed me what truly makes me happy. It’s like the best vacation that no one ever takes. I got accepted to the University of Alberta in Canada but am trying to hold off on thinking about that too much so that I don’t forget the things I am working on here.

I don’t know what is in store for me in this next year but I do know this much. The things I have learned in this past one will resonate through out the rest of my life, my family (both by lineage and friendship) are what keep me happy and the things that make a good life are not the things that you think of when you are making lists and goals and other peoples expectations of you. I thank God every day for the blessings that he has given to me, the most important one being place in this family surrounded by such wonderful people of all walks. My hope for the coming year is that I will be able to make not only these people proud but also myself proud and return to he that has given me all of these blessings. I love you all.

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