So I was going to write about my work load, or my room, or my inability to get any sleep but all of that went out the window when my brother called. I have not seen my brother since August and I never thought that I would ever miss him this much. I was so excited to see him but I thought that he would just drive up in his truck and say hi to me from his seat and then drive a way but thankfully that was not the case. When he drove in he immediately parked and jumped out of the cab and gave me the biggest hug that I have ever had in probably my whole life. I had not realized how much I have missed having my little brother around me until I had him right in front of me. We talked for only a few minuets and when he left we had another long hug. I was glad to see him because I knew that he was happier then he has been for a long time and that made me happy. He is gone now but just knowing that he is doing well and that he hasn't forgotten me has allowed me to do my work this week with a large smile. If you have a sibling give them a call it will amaze you how much that can help.
So, all day, from the moment that first ray of annoying sunlight started invading the inner sanctum that is my bedroom, I wanted a day...one day for myself. I had this dream of being able to wake up, make myself a wonderful breakfast (all the while having music play in my head worthy of a 90's sitcom), lazily get dressed and begin to put my life back together. No family, no obligations, no guilt, just peace. The morning was wonderful. My brother, who never seems to get going till about noon, was not making noise in his shop that is located on the other side of my bedroom window. My parents were at work. And I was living my dream. All things were wonderful until the afternoon when, like a ball that rolls down a hill and lands in a pond of goo, the whole thing turned into a disaster. For some reason, I was just unable to recover. I couldn't pull it back to a place where the dream could continue living. Instead I turned into the worst version of myself, swearing at my family in my...
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